haii. so crap. ytd bowl like shit-- n i really mean.so shitty. lanes were so dryy. yahhh, nt a sign of oil on my ball.usually gt quite some de.. but tt's nt the probb. i was like..xin bu zai yan. cant focus. i mean..i was concentrating, but nt focusing..n to hell with the differences btw focus n conc. i dunno lehh..wad's up wif me man.. one day still doing fine, den e nxt juz so shit..as in like. i made almost all of the mistakes i made last time, n i haf almost corrected them le.. den juz ytd made all the mistakes again. u name it, u got it.. walk too slowly(which i really walk alot faster now), turn too much(last mon i didnt do it alot), lift too much(mon..i also bowl straighter le).. everything.. juz did everything wrongly ytd. wth is wrongg.. arrgghh. oh yes.. all my spares miss target..although gt spare a few.. but tt is cos my ball hooked. yahh spare ball hook. juz show u the extent of how much i lift. and sarah lifts more den me lahh! bahh. bowler nt gd enough fr the ball.
easily distracted-
my time management skills really sux.. every yr my resolution or goals . one of them will be to improve my tm skills. nt much improvement i can see. practically nil. probably gt worse. yahh like now? need to find out abt physics pressure cooker. i juz started the search engine.. n juz typing awayy--
sometimes when i see like..those i noe.all gt stead. it's like.. some kind of peer pressure.. when u feel lonely, u juz need someone to hold u..to reassure u, u're nt alone..is loneliness the reason y ppl go n look for another suitable partner? besides the fun, the fact tt u feel drawn to tt particular person. like wadd, i also feel drawn to some ppl.. i noe hu i love.(nt family here). but tt doesnt mean i wanna haf a r/s wif tt sb.. ?? havent found my sexuality? i cant be a les.. like im against homosexuality (yah, n yet read slash/mpreg which im already feeling disgusted by), and i do nt feel any compelling attraction to any females ard me, pretty or not. alot of ppl noe (friends or nt) tt im pretty not-so-gd-communicator with girls. i mean, i can talk lahh. but i cant carry on the convo. n it's nt my fault all the time[ahh, let me not divert frm the topic]. yah so. im perfectly straight, tt i noe. i juz ..wad..dont care fr this? harr.saying no is a outright lie. juz feel tt it's nt worth it lor. hahaz, im still pretty much the instituitional n bit of psycholgical family bahh. hah, english. anyway, we're all so young.. but den again, 16 is not tt young. argh, heck with it. of cos, sometimes i feel tt i need someone to give me a shoulder to lean on.. or the whole body!.. u noe.. hmm, the whole thing will only serve as a bigger distraction instead of suppose to "help" me..to me,these matters r nt impt(abit lahh harr), more concerned abt like..wad's going on in e worldd.. when it's ending. the end is coming.. YET i noe tt "..the devil will not devour care-less ppl" y muz life be such an irony?
cant talk anymore-
losing it
cant rmb i even noe how to talk
i so hate polite talk
hate
relationships (nt bgr) r so hard to maintain, nurture n grow
but they r so easy to breakdown, disappear, dissolve
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haii. so crap. ytd bowl like shit-- n i really mean.so shitty. lanes were so dryy. yahhh, nt a sign of oil on my ball.usually gt quite some de.. but tt's nt the probb. i was like..xin bu zai yan. cant focus. i mean..i was concentrating, but nt focusing..n to hell with the differences btw focus n conc. i dunno lehh..wad's up wif me man.. one day still doing fine, den e nxt juz so shit..as in like. i made almost all of the mistakes i made last time, n i haf almost corrected them le.. den juz ytd made all the mistakes again. u name it, u got it.. walk too slowly(which i really walk alot faster now), turn too much(last mon i didnt do it alot), lift too much(mon..i also bowl straighter le).. everything.. juz did everything wrongly ytd. wth is wrongg.. arrgghh. oh yes.. all my spares miss target..although gt spare a few.. but tt is cos my ball hooked. yahh spare ball hook. juz show u the extent of how much i lift. and sarah lifts more den me lahh! bahh. bowler nt gd enough fr the ball.
easily distracted-
my time management skills really sux.. every yr my resolution or goals . one of them will be to improve my tm skills. nt much improvement i can see. practically nil. probably gt worse. yahh like now? need to find out abt physics pressure cooker. i juz started the search engine.. n juz typing awayy--
sometimes when i see like..those i noe.all gt stead. it's like.. some kind of peer pressure.. when u feel lonely, u juz need someone to hold u..to reassure u, u're nt alone..is loneliness the reason y ppl go n look for another suitable partner? besides the fun, the fact tt u feel drawn to tt particular person. like wadd, i also feel drawn to some ppl.. i noe hu i love.(nt family here). but tt doesnt mean i wanna haf a r/s wif tt sb.. ?? havent found my sexuality? i cant be a les.. like im against homosexuality (yah, n yet read slash/mpreg which im already feeling disgusted by), and i do nt feel any compelling attraction to any females ard me, pretty or not. alot of ppl noe (friends or nt) tt im pretty not-so-gd-communicator with girls. i mean, i can talk lahh. but i cant carry on the convo. n it's nt my fault all the time[ahh, let me not divert frm the topic]. yah so. im perfectly straight, tt i noe. i juz ..wad..dont care fr this? harr.saying no is a outright lie. juz feel tt it's nt worth it lor. hahaz, im still pretty much the instituitional n bit of psycholgical family bahh. hah, english. anyway, we're all so young.. but den again, 16 is not tt young. argh, heck with it. of cos, sometimes i feel tt i need someone to give me a shoulder to lean on.. or the whole body!.. u noe.. hmm, the whole thing will only serve as a bigger distraction instead of suppose to "help" me..to me,these matters r nt impt(abit lahh harr), more concerned abt like..wad's going on in e worldd.. when it's ending. the end is coming.. YET i noe tt "..the devil will not devour care-less ppl" y muz life be such an irony?
cant talk anymore-
losing it
cant rmb i even noe how to talk
i so hate polite talk
hate
relationships (nt bgr) r so hard to maintain, nurture n grow
but they r so easy to breakdown, disappear, dissolve