i am an alien in my own world
feel so stupid..i shld be like studying now.or slping..or wadever shiited ting.. n not like..troubling myself over this kinda rubbish ting..when..there's really nth to be so troubled abt..im not like working, dun haf to deal wif so much cares n worries.. im nt like..anything wrong or wadever shit..
but i juz feel so bad!!
..haii dunno wad im saying either. listening to tt stupid tong hua song by some guyy. den i juz cried..
kk. stop crying le. ive wiped the tears.
why must all the things attack me today?.. happen to me todayy. me tinking abt it..[[all these r diff stuff]]] but yet i realise how similar we are,..the "fate" we share.. n misunderstandings r happening all over the place ..[[this also diff ppl...]] i hate feb. i really hate it. it was when everything started. tt changed my life. really. i tink frm then on, i became this different person. perhaps it was always inside me, juz tt it didnt show. and yet, i noe im still me. tt old me..last time wadever shiited ting. now everyone's changing, and it's feeling so scary. im really v afraid. why must there be change? ..sounds so history. something juz rolled down my cheek. i really hate change, but like history..change muz take place.
i shld be like..studying now.or slping..or wadever tingyy . n nt here doing this rubbish..n making myself feel bad. haf i lost who i am, or was i nvr who i really am..dun even noe wad im saying anymore.. the fate tingyy:: why is it tt we muz even lie tt we haf settled down nicely? "interact" wad shite. im such a liar. lied for the hist overseas field trip interview. but it is so true larr.. juz not true for..applicable to over-there context. i tink..20x wadever came out of my mouth, besides me answering tchr qns, n during class discussions .. nt equals to wadever i said some time ago..it's nt even some time ago..it's more den one yr.. one yr one yr. it has been one yr. i really dunno! y has some bloody ting affected me so damn muchh. it's like..sooo alike meili in 1/2 yuanfen. n it's nt e only ting ahh. juz a playing factor.
now another one .. feel the same ting. her more indepth elaboration with perfect english.. juz enlightened me.. i feel so lousy.i have alot of support, wad support? u tell me..
just a surge of emotions..
more like of a torrent of it
i suppose so. human feelings r so complex.tt's y we r so special.
i juz realise i felt tired. sleepy rather. let's go to the day's happenings? v tired to. as in beat.. juz ran thru the mill or sth..
today's prefectinvestiture.. end at 9.20 went to victor's at 10.30 finished bowling at 1+. went to haf lunch wif sec4 bowlers. b4 tt saw cchms bowlers coming down frm the bus to trng when i wwas waiting for the bloody 400.
ha-ha
cos i left my ball at victor's when went for lunch..den ask y, said i wld come back. for wad? watch my friend bowl. wad friend ah? guy friend ah. from chungcheng or from cathigh? completely diao- so i was wadever. den they say ..oh from wadever secondary sch. arr..wadever lahh_
den went to bk to eat. oh man, pengx from laughing lah. clarice's haf so many funny experiences! oh man, peng from laughing lahh.. y i dun haf any funny stuff.. well, tink cos i haf a lousy memory. i forgot alot of gd jokes tt some ppl told me b4.
so went back to victor's. finally called the autism ppl. need to send the email again! for the 3rd time.. when qh n aurick saw me..greet me so loud lah!! i tink uncle leslie forgot who i am lahhhh--- hmph. roy is so biantai now..so gay. oh man-- he said he lost his hormones. or sth like tt? saw this "cute" guyy. wear red tee, a bit chubby. nt gd looking, no way- kkiz..cute? hmm. mebbe. den went out wif xl n ailin.. went to somerset. den went out of mrt. omg, it's raining!! tralalala, thx god for the rain..den went to bugis. by the time we went there, the rain stop ah!! but nvm..so went go take neos. guess wad? we took out our bowling balls n take!! oh man_
i realise tt blurness has become a part of me.n nt anymore a facade of wad i present to ppl. perhaps i was always blur frm the start, the magnitude juz increased. so much so tt sometimes it appears fake. to me even! but i really didnt get it at tt pt of time(s). my mandarin sux. my english is deproving. xl n ailin said last time my english was vv chim tt kind. kerry shld noe.. but now..it's like in shreds..all healthy signs of english r gone- whee! bahh, rubbish. n like..so blur n stuff like tt. haii. oh yes sth terribly embarrassing happen to me today. i was at city hall going to marina bay. den train come, at train door waiting fr ppl to come out. so ppl coming out, saw this guy , dunno if he's gd lookin not, but shld be lahh..anyway was looking at his hair cos nice mah..den walk past me le..den i heard the sound for the closing of doors. so i panicked n ran in/jump/hurried in..yah so i fell into the gap between the platform n train!! my right foot slipped thru the gap, if nt fr some kind hearted soul who fu1 me.. i tink i already fall down on the train floor..n leg dunno where..n doors r closing. oh man..and at tt time i was still v blur..dunno wad happen. hope haf no bruise.i tink it's juz a line across my leg.. both legs gt ulgy bruises. arghh..left leg is cos i fell down at the escalator while running up.. now is this, but shld be okay.
arghh..tmr going to sajc.. early morning . den wad lah, ailin coming along which means i cant be late. need to change this bad habit anyway.. hahaz, dave helped me rmb tt it is bad!! being late is bad. oh man, so stupidd. yahh.. n i was tinking of doing maths today. lahh. hmm..
kk gd nite..juz going to plonk onto bed.. now! nt before i on my alarm..
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i am an alien in my own world
feel so stupid..i shld be like studying now.or slping..or wadever shiited ting.. n not like..troubling myself over this kinda rubbish ting..when..there's really nth to be so troubled abt..im not like working, dun haf to deal wif so much cares n worries.. im nt like..anything wrong or wadever shit..
but i juz feel so bad!!
..haii dunno wad im saying either. listening to tt stupid tong hua song by some guyy. den i juz cried..
kk. stop crying le. ive wiped the tears.
why must all the things attack me today?.. happen to me todayy. me tinking abt it..[[all these r diff stuff]]] but yet i realise how similar we are,..the "fate" we share.. n misunderstandings r happening all over the place ..[[this also diff ppl...]] i hate feb. i really hate it. it was when everything started. tt changed my life. really. i tink frm then on, i became this different person. perhaps it was always inside me, juz tt it didnt show. and yet, i noe im still me. tt old me..last time wadever shiited ting. now everyone's changing, and it's feeling so scary. im really v afraid. why must there be change? ..sounds so history. something juz rolled down my cheek. i really hate change, but like history..change muz take place.
i shld be like..studying now.or slping..or wadever tingyy . n nt here doing this rubbish..n making myself feel bad. haf i lost who i am, or was i nvr who i really am..dun even noe wad im saying anymore.. the fate tingyy:: why is it tt we muz even lie tt we haf settled down nicely? "interact" wad shite. im such a liar. lied for the hist overseas field trip interview. but it is so true larr.. juz not true for..applicable to over-there context. i tink..20x wadever came out of my mouth, besides me answering tchr qns, n during class discussions .. nt equals to wadever i said some time ago..it's nt even some time ago..it's more den one yr.. one yr one yr. it has been one yr. i really dunno! y has some bloody ting affected me so damn muchh. it's like..sooo alike meili in 1/2 yuanfen. n it's nt e only ting ahh. juz a playing factor.
now another one .. feel the same ting. her more indepth elaboration with perfect english.. juz enlightened me.. i feel so lousy.i have alot of support, wad support? u tell me..
just a surge of emotions..
more like of a torrent of it
i suppose so. human feelings r so complex.tt's y we r so special.
i juz realise i felt tired. sleepy rather. let's go to the day's happenings? v tired to. as in beat.. juz ran thru the mill or sth..
today's prefectinvestiture.. end at 9.20 went to victor's at 10.30 finished bowling at 1+. went to haf lunch wif sec4 bowlers. b4 tt saw cchms bowlers coming down frm the bus to trng when i wwas waiting for the bloody 400.
ha-ha
cos i left my ball at victor's when went for lunch..den ask y, said i wld come back. for wad? watch my friend bowl. wad friend ah? guy friend ah. from chungcheng or from cathigh? completely diao- so i was wadever. den they say ..oh from wadever secondary sch. arr..wadever lahh_
den went to bk to eat. oh man, pengx from laughing lah. clarice's haf so many funny experiences! oh man, peng from laughing lahh.. y i dun haf any funny stuff.. well, tink cos i haf a lousy memory. i forgot alot of gd jokes tt some ppl told me b4.
so went back to victor's. finally called the autism ppl. need to send the email again! for the 3rd time.. when qh n aurick saw me..greet me so loud lah!! i tink uncle leslie forgot who i am lahhhh--- hmph. roy is so biantai now..so gay. oh man-- he said he lost his hormones. or sth like tt? saw this "cute" guyy. wear red tee, a bit chubby. nt gd looking, no way- kkiz..cute? hmm. mebbe. den went out wif xl n ailin.. went to somerset. den went out of mrt. omg, it's raining!! tralalala, thx god for the rain..den went to bugis. by the time we went there, the rain stop ah!! but nvm..so went go take neos. guess wad? we took out our bowling balls n take!! oh man_
i realise tt blurness has become a part of me.n nt anymore a facade of wad i present to ppl. perhaps i was always blur frm the start, the magnitude juz increased. so much so tt sometimes it appears fake. to me even! but i really didnt get it at tt pt of time(s). my mandarin sux. my english is deproving. xl n ailin said last time my english was vv chim tt kind. kerry shld noe.. but now..it's like in shreds..all healthy signs of english r gone- whee! bahh, rubbish. n like..so blur n stuff like tt. haii. oh yes sth terribly embarrassing happen to me today. i was at city hall going to marina bay. den train come, at train door waiting fr ppl to come out. so ppl coming out, saw this guy , dunno if he's gd lookin not, but shld be lahh..anyway was looking at his hair cos nice mah..den walk past me le..den i heard the sound for the closing of doors. so i panicked n ran in/jump/hurried in..yah so i fell into the gap between the platform n train!! my right foot slipped thru the gap, if nt fr some kind hearted soul who fu1 me.. i tink i already fall down on the train floor..n leg dunno where..n doors r closing. oh man..and at tt time i was still v blur..dunno wad happen. hope haf no bruise.i tink it's juz a line across my leg.. both legs gt ulgy bruises. arghh..left leg is cos i fell down at the escalator while running up.. now is this, but shld be okay.
arghh..tmr going to sajc.. early morning . den wad lah, ailin coming along which means i cant be late. need to change this bad habit anyway.. hahaz, dave helped me rmb tt it is bad!! being late is bad. oh man, so stupidd. yahh.. n i was tinking of doing maths today. lahh. hmm..
kk gd nite..juz going to plonk onto bed.. now! nt before i on my alarm..
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