why is it so difficult to blog now?
random thoughts-
this happened some time ago, mebbe last wk or this wk.. tink last. but anyway, when he said tt, immediately i thot: isnt tt the way i thought too? really smiled from the bottom of my heart. something tt has not been occuring for some time. those smiles n laughs seem so meaningless. juz polite smiles n laughs. but sometimes there r sincere ones..like when i feel tt things r getting better. yes, anyway.. i was really happy when he said tt.i didnt tell him tt i felt like tt before. he shld noe. well, now i noe tt he loves me as much as i love him. hahaz, but i also feel tt i love him tt bit more yeahh. but sometimes, i feel tt it's too virtual. i dont tink tt we can really tok face to face. but we're introverts yeah? ive already nt talk for some time. talk open mouth ask stupid qns okay ah, but not talk.. hahaz. i confuse alot of ppl. but who cares rite? nobody does really. or maybe i dunno. or maybe i dun care. or maybe they're nt the ones i wan to care (for me). yah_ yes yes, i thought tt we wld drift apart.. but really didnt tink tt it wld grow stronger. although sometimes i worry. yeahh, but i need to open my eyes, and also look at those who also care fr me n ive been neglecting. but tt's only abt 1 or 2. the rest? (of the closer ones)im somewhere there lah, but nt exactly first to come up in mind. but tt's okayy. as long as i noe tt im still rmb-ed, im contented.
it's funny how my strong feelings r not bgr. no i dun bgr love him. kinda weird eh, but it's not. it's much stronger den tt. sometimes i feel that he is my brother, although i also wanna love my bro tt way. but he's nt 'getting' the love- wish my bro couldd. so wad dai ti ping ah? nahh, he's way above tt.
these days have been daydreaming alot lah. n my heart keeps stopping. no! i dont mean that! juz like sometimes ur heart stops. literally. u can feel it! yeah tt has been happening to me alot. saw darren yuen n yen yang (i tink it is lah) at 9.30 in macs. when i came out of the lift frm tuition. yah heart drop lah. nt tt they r "strikingly handsome", but juz kinda shock to see them there at THAT time. den see this guy look my way, heart will drop. esp if he's cute! YES! ive been seeing alot of shuai-ge(s) around lor!! oh man_ but like..they all have the same face_ well..hahaz den daydream n daydream. bahh_
kkiz need to go n slp cos dad need to use com.
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why is it so difficult to blog now?
random thoughts-
this happened some time ago, mebbe last wk or this wk.. tink last. but anyway, when he said tt, immediately i thot: isnt tt the way i thought too? really smiled from the bottom of my heart. something tt has not been occuring for some time. those smiles n laughs seem so meaningless. juz polite smiles n laughs. but sometimes there r sincere ones..like when i feel tt things r getting better. yes, anyway.. i was really happy when he said tt.i didnt tell him tt i felt like tt before. he shld noe. well, now i noe tt he loves me as much as i love him. hahaz, but i also feel tt i love him tt bit more yeahh. but sometimes, i feel tt it's too virtual. i dont tink tt we can really tok face to face. but we're introverts yeah? ive already nt talk for some time. talk open mouth ask stupid qns okay ah, but not talk.. hahaz. i confuse alot of ppl. but who cares rite? nobody does really. or maybe i dunno. or maybe i dun care. or maybe they're nt the ones i wan to care (for me). yah_ yes yes, i thought tt we wld drift apart.. but really didnt tink tt it wld grow stronger. although sometimes i worry. yeahh, but i need to open my eyes, and also look at those who also care fr me n ive been neglecting. but tt's only abt 1 or 2. the rest? (of the closer ones)im somewhere there lah, but nt exactly first to come up in mind. but tt's okayy. as long as i noe tt im still rmb-ed, im contented.
it's funny how my strong feelings r not bgr. no i dun bgr love him. kinda weird eh, but it's not. it's much stronger den tt. sometimes i feel that he is my brother, although i also wanna love my bro tt way. but he's nt 'getting' the love- wish my bro couldd. so wad dai ti ping ah? nahh, he's way above tt.
these days have been daydreaming alot lah. n my heart keeps stopping. no! i dont mean that! juz like sometimes ur heart stops. literally. u can feel it! yeah tt has been happening to me alot. saw darren yuen n yen yang (i tink it is lah) at 9.30 in macs. when i came out of the lift frm tuition. yah heart drop lah. nt tt they r "strikingly handsome", but juz kinda shock to see them there at THAT time. den see this guy look my way, heart will drop. esp if he's cute! YES! ive been seeing alot of shuai-ge(s) around lor!! oh man_ but like..they all have the same face_ well..hahaz den daydream n daydream. bahh_
kkiz need to go n slp cos dad need to use com.