k long post. but i shall make it fast.
today is a bad day. n i tink i getting crazy abt guys tt have clean features, nt necessarily gd looking. well, taking the mrt everyday i err.. k wadever. yes yes. bad day
and it has to start even before i step into sch. let's start from the beginning, before i cry or get angry, get mad...
so i was crossing the road to the bus stop on the other side, n i was fidgeting with my belt, cos it seemed extra low today. (i didnt do anything k, i vv guai) den cos i didnt wanted to stand in my usual place, i went to the end, near the ad. there. yes, i did not, i repeat, i DID NOT look at anyone intensively nearly cast a glance at who is there. okay, then since i stood at the end, facing the flow of the traffic, i can see everyone at the bus stop. den this woman, (she's a primary sch tchr) turned around n looked in my direction. i assumed she was looking at the roads, so den look in her DIRECTION but somewhere close near HER. den i realised she kept looking in my direction, and hence ME. so i was (in my mind) errr??. den wadever lor..i cant rmb wad i did. yes, fidgeting with my belt. den suddenly she came up to me, n i thot "huh, wad do u wan to ask me? dont u take the bus everyday?". omg, it totally turns out bad!! she said,
"ehh what r u looking at? "
i was huh, before i could say anything
"ive noticed u alot of times, dont think u very pretty, keep eyeing me n my daughter, and compare to urself. u tink we very ugly izzit? (or sounded like: i noe we v uglyy??) [ b4 all personal comments, i haf one comment: tchr uses bad english too ] u wearing rgs uniform still act like this, i have noticed u alot of times looking at us. if i didnt turn back n notice u , i wldnt see tt u were looking at me. "
"what? i haven't done anything!" --whimpering
-looks at me up n down with contempt
" u are from rgs, u ought to be better behaved "
bus comes..saves me! im shocked, surprised, angry, mad, thinking "this woman cb".
[ the actual dialogue is much more than tt, no i mean anolgue. wrong spelling, lazy to check ]
on the bus, the woman looked at me again, i was staring past her. i mean looking past her, den turn to face the exit. the daughter standing abt 2 m away from me near the unused fare machine thingyy. den as the bus moved, i began thinking...
i do not think im pretty, so go away. i have not thought of her n her daughter as ugly, as said by that woman. like i didnt assume she was her daughter. u noe wad i assumed? they were teachers in the same primary sch, n are neighbours. i once thot they could be mother n daughter, but cant rmb i cancelled that. anyway, WHAT I EYE HER LIKE THOSE GANGSTERS EYE PEOPLE.. DEN FIGHT. eye them. omg, compare to myself? hello i haf no miror, no picture of myself in my hp or wallet. compare what?!
worse still, she already like..conflicted herself. or a weak attempt to justify HER MAD MUTTERINGS N ACCUSATIONS OF ME::" if i didnt turn back , i wldnt have seen u lookin at me." i rmb clearly there was a slight pause/hesitation before she said tt statement. hello?! u were the one looking SO BLOODY LONG at me aka my direction.
i always look around at ppl. wad? tt means im eyeing them n comparing them to myself? oh my gawdd. here i was really mad at her. moment of calm thought: it could have been my dao-ness tt made her think tt way. conjured up tt mad thought. anyway, she is so conscious abt herself, tt is why she will think tt way rite? urghh. my dao look. esp in the mornings, when im nt awake.
this is where i started to cry. tear. wadever. sodium chloride solution running down from my eyes n spoiling my face. it's cos of this biting remark. ppl who haf known me before rgs shld noe this: i stereotype n hate the stereotypes tt the ppl wearing my uniform have. n they shld all noe tt i get v worked up when different schools r mentioned. even the great colmanchua stereotypes heavily against them.
the one i want to laugh at.. but at tt point of time, was crying, sad, angry, mad, thinking "ha-ha, now i being stereotyped into wad i dun wan n hated to be".
"from rgs, u ought to be better behaved"
what?! looking at ppl is a criminal offence, or a behaviour stimulating potential breakout of fighting or other behaviour similar to gangsters? behaved...
tt was the supposedly funny part. the wadever that wadevers me is the label. argh, shit u, go away.
cried all the way to the mrt. the platform i tried to hold it back, yeah managed to. still thinking abt it. hurts- i really dont understand why she had to confront me like that. why?! out to embarrass me. humilate me n stereotype me by tt label. with the handful of people at the bus stop. so i tried to think abt sth else, didnt work. except for the fact tt i started to have a stomachache. n i ended up in the toilet for half hr during PE(first lesson).
i thot i wld like cry in class or sth. didnt. didnt really think abt it throughout lesson. why? STRESS AH_
shite
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come'n tell me the processes of globalisation through economic growth in indonesia. come'n. pdf files, tell me where..zoom me to that page, n stop making me read every statement. or rather run throught them
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k long post. but i shall make it fast.
today is a bad day. n i tink i getting crazy abt guys tt have clean features, nt necessarily gd looking. well, taking the mrt everyday i err.. k wadever. yes yes. bad day
and it has to start even before i step into sch. let's start from the beginning, before i cry or get angry, get mad...
so i was crossing the road to the bus stop on the other side, n i was fidgeting with my belt, cos it seemed extra low today. (i didnt do anything k, i vv guai) den cos i didnt wanted to stand in my usual place, i went to the end, near the ad. there. yes, i did not, i repeat, i DID NOT look at anyone intensively nearly cast a glance at who is there. okay, then since i stood at the end, facing the flow of the traffic, i can see everyone at the bus stop. den this woman, (she's a primary sch tchr) turned around n looked in my direction. i assumed she was looking at the roads, so den look in her DIRECTION but somewhere close near HER. den i realised she kept looking in my direction, and hence ME. so i was (in my mind) errr??. den wadever lor..i cant rmb wad i did. yes, fidgeting with my belt. den suddenly she came up to me, n i thot "huh, wad do u wan to ask me? dont u take the bus everyday?". omg, it totally turns out bad!! she said,
"ehh what r u looking at? "
i was huh, before i could say anything
"ive noticed u alot of times, dont think u very pretty, keep eyeing me n my daughter, and compare to urself. u tink we very ugly izzit? (or sounded like: i noe we v uglyy??) [ b4 all personal comments, i haf one comment: tchr uses bad english too ] u wearing rgs uniform still act like this, i have noticed u alot of times looking at us. if i didnt turn back n notice u , i wldnt see tt u were looking at me. "
"what? i haven't done anything!" --whimpering
-looks at me up n down with contempt
" u are from rgs, u ought to be better behaved "
bus comes..saves me! im shocked, surprised, angry, mad, thinking "this woman cb".
[ the actual dialogue is much more than tt, no i mean anolgue. wrong spelling, lazy to check ]
on the bus, the woman looked at me again, i was staring past her. i mean looking past her, den turn to face the exit. the daughter standing abt 2 m away from me near the unused fare machine thingyy. den as the bus moved, i began thinking...
i do not think im pretty, so go away. i have not thought of her n her daughter as ugly, as said by that woman. like i didnt assume she was her daughter. u noe wad i assumed? they were teachers in the same primary sch, n are neighbours. i once thot they could be mother n daughter, but cant rmb i cancelled that. anyway, WHAT I EYE HER LIKE THOSE GANGSTERS EYE PEOPLE.. DEN FIGHT. eye them. omg, compare to myself? hello i haf no miror, no picture of myself in my hp or wallet. compare what?!
worse still, she already like..conflicted herself. or a weak attempt to justify HER MAD MUTTERINGS N ACCUSATIONS OF ME::" if i didnt turn back , i wldnt have seen u lookin at me." i rmb clearly there was a slight pause/hesitation before she said tt statement. hello?! u were the one looking SO BLOODY LONG at me aka my direction.
i always look around at ppl. wad? tt means im eyeing them n comparing them to myself? oh my gawdd. here i was really mad at her. moment of calm thought: it could have been my dao-ness tt made her think tt way. conjured up tt mad thought. anyway, she is so conscious abt herself, tt is why she will think tt way rite? urghh. my dao look. esp in the mornings, when im nt awake.
this is where i started to cry. tear. wadever. sodium chloride solution running down from my eyes n spoiling my face. it's cos of this biting remark. ppl who haf known me before rgs shld noe this: i stereotype n hate the stereotypes tt the ppl wearing my uniform have. n they shld all noe tt i get v worked up when different schools r mentioned. even the great colmanchua stereotypes heavily against them.
the one i want to laugh at.. but at tt point of time, was crying, sad, angry, mad, thinking "ha-ha, now i being stereotyped into wad i dun wan n hated to be".
"from rgs, u ought to be better behaved"
what?! looking at ppl is a criminal offence, or a behaviour stimulating potential breakout of fighting or other behaviour similar to gangsters? behaved...
tt was the supposedly funny part. the wadever that wadevers me is the label. argh, shit u, go away.
cried all the way to the mrt. the platform i tried to hold it back, yeah managed to. still thinking abt it. hurts- i really dont understand why she had to confront me like that. why?! out to embarrass me. humilate me n stereotype me by tt label. with the handful of people at the bus stop. so i tried to think abt sth else, didnt work. except for the fact tt i started to have a stomachache. n i ended up in the toilet for half hr during PE(first lesson).
i thot i wld like cry in class or sth. didnt. didnt really think abt it throughout lesson. why? STRESS AH_
shite
no ss extension
come'n tell me the processes of globalisation through economic growth in indonesia. come'n. pdf files, tell me where..zoom me to that page, n stop making me read every statement. or rather run throught them
wo wu yi wu kao
hai hao you le ni
zi shi zhe shi tai "virtual" le
i wld juz be imagining
dave is scaring me. go away.